Is Honest Good Enough?

Two years ago, I was going through a very difficult time. It was suggested that I journal something good that happened each day. I don’t have the discipline to journal, but I do for blogging. Don’t ask what the difference is.

This began a daily blog post where I would post something good that happened that day, no matter how small. I did that for a year and then moved to a weekly good news post.

I share all this to tell you that I had actually decided not to blog tonight (Sunday is my day for good news blogging).

It is not that nothing good happened today, it is more that I have been feeling rough.

I hesitate to share because it is one of my pet peeves that some people use social media to share only bad things. Plus, I do not want anyone’s pity.

I am not going into detail here. I have shared elsewhere about challenges with autism, mental health, sarcoidosis, unemployment, death of parents and so on. At the moment, my wife is in the hospital and I really miss her.

The point is these things do pile up and there is a cost to endure.

Amanda and I have had so many people describe us as “super-parents.” People make a big deal about how great we are. We are not great. We are human and we have days where we feel crappy.

There are many days when the things that have happened and are happening weigh heavy on us. This is one of those days. Everyone has emotional limits and that includes me.

Feeling discouraged and down does not mean I don’t have faith in God. I do believe (help my unbelief) and I can see God working even now in our midst.

Still there is a wall to be hit and I have bounced off it numerous times recently.

Is this too personal? Should I keep my thoughts to myself? Perhaps. However, I expect that there are others out there who feel beat up by life. I want you to know you are not alone.

So do I have any good news? I don’t know. I guess this Sunday honest will have to be good enough.

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